i am a soldier. i've been commissioned to fight in this war. as i go along, the war is seeming more and more important. but i have a problem. in running with my brothers along the road i keep getting knocked off my feet. it's brings a feeling of defeat and hopelessness. i see the friends fighting and dodging these holes in the road. i want to join them and fight alongside them. i want to win this battle. to fight for the cause i am defending. i've been called to fight but i can't seem to find the strength. i need help from one who has been through these skirmishes. i need a guide.